Guess this will never come true.

I started out as a Cadet.

Passed my LCP and CPL CAPE.

Here comes the problem.

Apparently, I failed my fucking SGT CAPE 2 fucking times. I don't give a fuck about my language in this blog anymore. I post whatever the fuck I want to. I don't give a damn whether CIs or squadmates or cadets saw or read this post.

1st time:

I passed all components... except for one. Attendance.

Well apparently, I WAS FUCKING SICK AND I FUCKING PASSED UP MY FUCKING MC AND I WAS STILL MARKED AS AN X. Dear Peng Ning Sir helped me and appealed on my behalf. It did not work out. I still failed. Well, fuck that. I'll try again. That's what I told myself.

2nd time:

I passed all components... except for one. or maybe two. I DID NOT RECEIVE BACK MY FUCKING SCORESHEET. Fuck. So I did not know. Well, I do know that I failed my Rifle parts component though. The one where I had to memorise and spit out 20 rifle parts to the examiner. Screw this shit. THEY DID NOT FUCKING STANDARDISE THE INFORMATION THEY FUCKING GAVE TO THEIR CADETS. They gave 2 different Pictures. With different parts. 50 % chance. I memorised the wrong diagram, and ended up failing the component because they only accept the answers from the OTHER diagram. So Fuck this. This was still not the end. The CIs fucking thought that I did not put in fucking effort. FUCK THIS SHIT. EFFORT?! I memorised the OTHER diagram, they did not accept my answer. That's their definition of not putting in effort. So this was how I failed my second SGT CAPE.

The 3rd time will be in Jan 2011.

By then, If I passed, I will be a SGT. While my friends will be S/SGT. FUCK THAT SHIT.

That's not the worse part.

Well, I'm the same rank as my juniors. Isn't that awesome. How's that for a failure.

Not only that, SPF NPCC Nomination, The badge that I have always wanted since Secondary 1. Is not going to be mine. Minimum Requirement: S/SGT

FUCK THAT. So, they are conducting a FUCKING RE-CAPE for the SGT because right now there are only 2 S/SGT. YAY. WOW. how about the loner, me. I'm ignored.

So there goes my fucking chance to get the SPF NPCC badge.

yay me.

That's not all.

AFTER I FUCKING FAILED SGT CAPE TWO TIMES.

THE CIS DECIDED TO DO SOMETHING

1)STANDARDISE ALL INFORMATION THEY SEND TO CADETS

FUCK THAT. IF YOU HAD DONE THAT EARLIER, I WOULD HAVE PASSED MY SGT CAPE

2)MAKE AMENDMENTS TO THE REQUIREMENT OF PASSING CAPE

FUCK THAT. IF YOU HAD DONE THAT EARLIER, I WOULD HAVE PASSED MY SGT CAPE

3) Not really something they did after I failed SGT CAPE twice. but nonetheless, It needs to be mentioned

FUCKING TOLD ME OFF BECAUSE OF MY ADMIN SKILLS. WELL IT'S LOUSY ALRIGHT, BUT IT DID NOT COST ANYBODY ANYTHING.

BUT THE FUCKING X ON MY ATTENDANCE LIST WAS AN ADMIN ERROR AND BECAUSE THEY DID NOT RECEIVE MY MC WHEN I DID PASS IT TO THEM, MEANS THAT THEY CAN JUST PUT AN X ON MY ATTENDANCE. WELL FUCK THAT. THIS ADMIN ERROR COSTED ME MY FUCKING SGT RANK FOR A FUCKING YEAR, AND SCREWED MY CHANCES OF BECOMING A S/SGT BEFORE I PASSED OUT AND FUCKED ME UP BECAUSE I WOULD NEVER HAVE A CHANCE TO GET THE SPF NPCC BADGE EVER FUCKING AGAIN.

FUCK.